January 1st, 2008 began rather depressingly. Emily lay on the front lawn of my old apartment in San Jose with a raging case of the spins while I packed the ‘Ru with moving boxes after a break up the week before with my live in manfriend. It was a year of changes – most of which were pushed on me and came whether I was ready for them or not.
I began 2008 in a new apartment, in a new city, with new roommates and no plan. But I had Emily. Turns out, that was enough.
Over the course of 2008 I logged several hundred miles on the roads and trails of San Francisco, distancing myself from the past that didn’t work out and future I had yet to imagine. Well, I have had 12 months to reconcile my thoughts and here’s what I’ve come to realize: 2008 was a year of unexpected upgrades.
But after doing a short inventory of the things I gained in 2008 I realize I’ve come out on top. Here’s a short tally. Losses: One boyfriend, one apartment, one future. Gains: New friends, new city, Joe Purdy, increased mileage, new career path, new future.
This time last year I signed up for the Big Sur Marathon because I needed to work towards something. I needed to prove to myself that I was still strong, that I was capable of pushing myself forward. So I joined a running club where I discovered new trails, met new friends, and put back on the weight I lost after the break up.
Two weeks before the race I felt strong, I felt ready. Then I tore my calf and was sidelined from running for nearly three months. I pretended to like swimming. I took long walks. I tried to perfect my pool game. (Looks like I may need another year.)
Well, I am happy to report that 2009 began much less dramatically. I entered the New Year surrounded by my two best friends in Boston and harboring completely sober thoughts about the year ahead. 2009 will bring even more changes in my life – but this time, they will be on my terms. In the meantime, I have a marathon to complete. I signed up today for the Big Sur Marathon in April. I figure I should probably finish what I started. Because new challenges are waiting around the corner.